Thursday, December 01, 2005
@1:38 AM
Ooh my first entry coming!! Make way people!!!!
Frankly speaking (typing), I'm not sure how long I can sustain this blog but we shall all see.
So why does Azah suddenly decides to join the blogger.com?
PEER PRESSURE.... Nah not exactly. Well I know blogging's the IN thing now but I can't promise commitment to this thus the contemplation. Actually I've been reading my friends' blogs (maybe they'll never guess that cos I won't even bother to leave my comments hehe). It's a nice feeling to be updated (albeit informally) about how the others (especially the people I care about) are doing. I totally understand how a simple call can be such a chore with such busy schedules to juggle, what more taking time off for a meet up over coffee. Oh how technology is allowing us to compromise on such efforts but well since it's here, I shall start making use of it.
I've always had the problem of expressing myself and hopefully this can be a good practice :). This blog will definitely not contain everything that's trapped in my mind but you should be able to get the gist of what's happening in my life.
Indeed life hasn't been pleasant lately. Unusual waves of thoughts... unpleasant thoughts. I'm at the trough of the wave. Having holidays is definitely not helping but I'm trying to keep myself busy. But at times I can't help but think and emotions will soon set in. Give me time, I'm not sure how long it will take but I'll definitely need the time.
Anyway I got this from someone's blog and I wish to share it.
Once upon a time, there was a mother and her daughter sitting under a big tree near a meadow.
Then suddenly the girl asked her mother.
Daughter: Mum, how do we know we have found our perfect soulmate? Can you please tell me?
Mother: ( Keeps silent for a while before she answers) Look that way. There are a lot of flowers there. Why don't you walk straight ahead and you are not suppose to walk backwards. On your way, try to pick the most beautiful flower and give it to me. Pick just one and remember, you cannot walk backwards.
And so the girl walk straight ahead to the meadow.
After a few minutes,
Daughter: I am back.
Mother: Well I don't see any flower in your hand. Is there no beautiful ones?
Daughter: Along the way, I did find a few but each time I saw one, I though I'll find more beautiful ones ahead and so I did not pick it up. And soon I realised I have already reached the end of the meadow and I haven't picked any. Since you told me that I couldn't walk back, I ended up with none.
Mother: That's what happens in real life. When you think you've seen a beautiful flower, pick it up and make it your most beautiful flower.
What is the message of this story?
Flowers: the people around you
Beautiful flowers: the people that attracts you
Meadow: time
In looking for your soulmate, please don't always compare and hope that you'll find a better one. By doing that. you will be wasting your lifetime cause TIME NEVER GOES BACK.
And now my question... If your most beautiful flower starts wilting on you, should you just put it aside? Or should you continue giving it your tender loving care and hope that one day it revives itself, knowing that the wilting flower still remains to be that most beautiful flower in your heart.
Azah's most beautiful flower has wilted in her very own hands...............................
And to all those who have remained by her side, Azah thanked you from the bottom of her broken heart. You know who you are.
