Monday, September 25, 2006
@1:57 PM
It has been almost a year and i thought I am already fine with everything. Maybe I just want to believe that I am already fine. I want to at least act that I am already fine.... but at least I know I am much better. Perhaps I will never be totally fine. I did not expect to see you again last Saturday, after a long time. What more in a weird circumstance where our teams had to compete against each other. I really did not know you will be there. After the painkiller jab I had on my butt just hours before (yeap I was in excrutiating pain in the middle of the night that I had to rush to the clinic), I was really contemplating whether I should turn up for the match that morning. But I just couldn't bear not joining the team. We had spent last week staying back after school just to pick up the game and re-energise ourselves. Imagine whole day of teaching and then staying back till 9pm to train. But I must admit, I enjoyed myself during every session. It was my chance to work out those rusty muscles and build camaraderie with my colleagues.I wanted to be there, to at least give them my moral support. Jadi cheerleader pun jadi lah. 
There were 4 separate courts playing simultaneously and yet our teams were put together to be in the same court. I planned to be just the reserved player, due to last night's attack and that's why I missed the first match against yours. Looking at the other teams, I know we are not going to win but giving up was never an option. The moment we alighted from the bus, we know we winning is no longer the main priority but we MUST have fun! Well at least we can learn more about the rules of the game. Haha yes, we actually went there without really knowing all the rules, (besides the basic rules like the territories allowed and footings) so you can imagine how many times we were whistled off by the umpire.
However, during the first match, one of my team mates suffered an injury comeback and I had to take my place in the subsequent 3 matches. I was still in slight pain while in the bus to the Kallang Netball Centre but surprisingly all pain disappeared by the time I was told to play. Alhamdulillah, must be the painkiller I popped in before I left home. And the pain came stinging again just a few hours after we ended our last match.
Out of the 4 matches each team played we won only 2. We were just grateful that no one suffered any serious injuries other than a few sprained ankles. We didn't go home as failures, we were winners for having that fighting spirit. And thinking that we were the only school which actually send representatives for MOE (2 teams somemore ok! Don't play play!), it just shows that we are sporting enough.
Whatever it is, I didn't regret joining the team for the competition. It was definitely a great learning experience and I love how we bonded through it.
It's just that..... after a long time.... I am having flashbacks again. I don't quite like this feeling...... Don't ask what am I exactly feeling cause I can't name it. I suppose, it's good enough that we can still smile at each other. Bila ku kenang ku renung gambar wajah mu
Kisah yang lalu tak akan berulang lagi
Lupakan saja cerita lama
Usah dirayu pada yang tak sudi
Janganlah dinanti pada yang telah pergi
Hanya luka lamakan berdarah kembali
Kini kecewa tidak terkata
Mengapakah itu disebut lagi
Apalah yang hendak di kata
Sudah suratan takdir yang menentukan
Ooh..oh..inilah ragam manusia
Manis di bibir pandai bermain lidah
Berputar-putar membelitkan kata-kata
Hanya linangan air mata yang menitis
Pada bayangan di angin lalu
Membisikkan kata rindu bayangan
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
@8:38 AM
Ohayo gozaimasu!!
:) I'm not expecting anyone to be peeping into my blog page anymore. Those who actually bothered to tag my page would have given up expecting updates from me.
Well indeed it has been a long time since I leave my prints here. Close to 4 months?
Just a brief update of my developments:
Over and done with training in NIE alhamdulillah and now back in my practicum school for good. No regrets joining the teaching force yet (and hopefully not anytime soon, at least not until I clear my bond please!)
I can't say that everyday has been a bliss nor a breeze. There were days when I felt challenged, demoralised, drained out but there has yet to be a day when I really dread waking up to go to school.
Semoga semangat berjuang ini berterusan hendaknya.
Hhhmmm I was intending to update you on a few developments but I realised there's nothing else interesting or significant worth mentioning.
Yeah so now you know how mundane my life is..... well not quite la. Just that it revolves too much around work, tuition and pretty much nothing else. So a good enough reason for not updating my blog. Or else I would have bore you with too much of my classroom tales and work-related nonsense.
