Of the many brittle spider webs that I entwine
Are hopes and thoughts that I dream
In my infinite mind
That carries such poise
Do I really understand what I believe?
Of the imagination I possess
Are dreams and hopes that I envision
Of my daily disappointments
I discover something new
But do I really understand what I learn?
Of my deepest desires and aspirations
Are the deepest feelings and needs
And in my pleading heart
Is the truth, but
Do I really know what I want?
When the white blissful fear encounters me
I want to run and hide from it
And when it passes
When I come out of hiding
Do I understand what I’m afraid of?
When happiness and pleasures engulf me
And that feeling in my stomach occurs
The crinkles in my eyes are more visible
And the walls behind my eyes come down
But do I know why this happiness transpires?
When my mind is not so clear
And thinking is hard
The lack of the transparent thoughts
Leaves me baffled and befuddle
But do I know what my confusion is?
My life is a roller coaster
As I ascend and descend
Everyday is just another ride
On the roller coaster of life
And of the things that I feel
I hope that I know who I am
Know who I was
And what I might become
When fear overcomes me
I hope I know what fear is
And when things are not clear
I hope I know my confusion
I hope everyday will be different
Experience new things and feelings
