Sunday, September 16, 2007
@12:12 PM
STRUGGLE
I am struggling between my worldly commitments and my wish to be more spiritual in this blessed month. Deadlines after deadlines and everything just seems like a mad rush.
I still have two major assigments in progress.
1) I have to set the Science P3 SA2 paper.... Due tomorrow. Not even halfway done yet and there will be a lot of scanning to be done.
2) Two New Zealanders are coming to my school on Tuesday and again I've been arrowed for my lesson to be observed. If only I could say no. And they want it to be IT-based somemore! So that means that I would need to at least prepare a powerpoint slide... or should I just bring my kids to the computer lab and let them do e-learning? Haiya headache, but this I shall put on hold for the moment. Must finish up task no 1 first!
3) Markings are already stacking up. And I'm just blogging here to destress for a while.
Anyway I was mentioning about the struggle. I don't know about you people but I have my periods of being more spiritually inclined. Kira tu macam in the mood to duduk atas sejadah lebih lama, baca Quran and yada yada.... tapi kalau mood menyetan malas tu dah datang, kadang2 sembahyang pun can put on hold till the last minute. Buruk sungguh! Ni tandanya imanku masih belum kuat Astaghfirullah! And how I just wish that I have more than 24 hours, I have limitless energy and have super powers especially in this bulan Ramadhan- So that I can do all that I wish and all that is needed.
This is a struggle and this is a challenge for me. I just haven't been very good at time management that's why.
