Monday, October 15, 2007
@11:50 PM
AL-FATEHA
Dear friend,
Your departure is a great loss to many. We are all missing you... we miss your words, we miss your laughter, we miss your advices, we miss your presence. I am missing you. You have touched my life in many ways than one.
As said in my previous entry, I really thank Allah for sending you to me, for this short reacquaintance after many many years of lost contact. MasyaAllah, Allah is so great. You left us suddenly... and it was as if you know that your time has come.
Ya Allah, I really thank you for allowing me that final chance to meet him before he left us. Dear friend, thank you for insisting to meet up that night to return me the things. I knew you were tired and I was still doing my springcleaning for Hari Raya; but we still did. You showed me your Raya baju which you never got a chance to wear. You've showed me your new helmet which could not fit on my big head. You got me to paste that probation triangle on your bike. You polished and waxed your bike while I sat cracking up some lame jokes. But I did notice you were quieter that night, but I thought it was because you've had a long day.
But I still do have some regrets. You requested me to bring down some lontong and kuih raya which I never did. You wished me Selamat Hari Raya and seeked for my forgiveness, it was a long one indeed. Your words really stirred me inside. I was trying to hold back my tears and throughout your speech, I just stood silent, just listening to you. I was lost for words. In return, I could only say "same for me too" because I did not want you to hear my breaking voice. And I still remember your very last line: 'Azah, selalu kenangku dalam doamu' *Always remember me in your prayers*. I was really going to break down hearing that and I just said a simple goodbye and left you.
It was the night of Hari Raya when the tragedy happened. You were on your way back from my place. You have just completed your 1 full month of fasting, alhamdulillah.
Dear friend, we've shared many wonderful times during this past 2 months. I've no regrets. We were sincere in our friendship and it doesnt matter what other people had to say. Thank you for allowing me to be your friend, and I hope I have been a good one.
I will always remember
-31st July when I saw you at my house for the An-Nur youth meeting and how I could recognise you after so long.
-malam 1 Ramadhan when you asked me to read the Quran together with you over the phone. I was so moved by that request. I cried.
-the day I sent you to collect your bike. How you were so excited to finally have the convenience of travelling around.
- the break fast dinner with your fiancee and Hafiz on your birthday.
- all the ceramahs we listened together over the phone played from YouTube.
-and very much especially our very last meetup before the tragedy. Indeed there are many other memories to remember you by; too many. Thank you friend. You've taught me a lot. Now I must carry through all your advices and insyaAllah we'll meet again someday.
I've been rereading the previous entry about thanking you. I didn't know why I suddenly had the urge to pen that down.... perhaps I just wanted to thank you before you leave, eventhough I know I never told you that personally before.
So many people came to pay their last respect and so many prayed for you. MasyaAllah. You have left us in such a blessed manner, no one could ask for more.
Mari kita sedekahkan Al-Fateha buat Rafiq Bin Yahya yang telah lebih dulu meninggalkan kita. Moga-moga dia ditempatkan di samping orang-orang yang soleh dan beriman dan mendapat tempat di taman syurgaNya. Amin.
3 Oct 1982-14 Oct 2007
Life is indeed very short. We can never know when ours will end. Let's make the best of the time we have and cherish all the people around us.
