Thursday, October 25, 2007
@9:54 PM
I DIDN'T MEAN TO
I was reading your blog entry and I can't help wondering whether it was me you are referring to. Even if it wasn't me you are talking about, I do admit that I may not have been updating you about things personally. The blog has been a convenient avenue to keep one another updated.
It's not that I'm casting you or anyone else aside. It's not that I've already gained new friends and abandoning my old loyal ones. This matter from the very start was seen as a 'forbidden' one by many. But my intentions were clear, and you can say I was stubborn. Although I must admit along the way I did get myself entangled with my own emotions but I knew I wanted to serve my main intention above anything else.
I know the few people who knew the story from the beginning were very concern. I understand their point of view. I was scared myself initially but I don't know why... I just went ahead with what I was strongly feeling deep inside. Those very few people who knew just happened to dig it out from me. Frankly speaking, it wasn't one of those stories I would openly and proudly tell people about, because I could anticipate the kind of reactions and I don't blame them. So it just became my own personal life story which I pen down occasionally in my blog. And I'm sure from here, you readers could roughly follow the development of it.
I hope you don't feel offended. I really did not mean to cast anyone aside. Let the details of this part of my life story be kept within me.
You are still and have always been a very dear friend to me. Friends cannot be replaced. You yourself know that I'm one who likes to keep to myself.
Anyway I can't say I'm perfectly fine already. But I try to be better. Perhaps I've never experience this kind of loss before...... I'm not questioning God's plan but I'm just missing a dear friend.
But don't you worry ya peeps! Thanks for all the concern. Very much appreciated.
LOVE YOU LOTS! *hugs*
